I guess I'm starting another new one. I've taken a break from blogging due to multiple reasons, not just one huge one. Twitter is one of them. Before Twitter came along, I was more diligent about blogging what I was up to, what I saw, what I'd be thinking. Twitter became very convenient to do and composing didn't take much thinking, being limited to 140 characters and easy to send off from my cell phone.
I think one other reason why I quit talking so much about my life was that I've had too much shit going on. Not good shit, I mean. And I hate airing out my dirty laundry too much, especially while it's happening. I don't mind talking about it after I've sorted it out and figured out how to laugh about it. Until then, I'm a moping, stressed-out, tobacco-smoking fiend.
I've also been procrastinating because I wanted to find my "theme" and focus just writing on that. I keep on thinking I can talk about my kids, about being a single mom trying to keep the balance of life, blah-blah-blah, which I do most of the time. My every day life does involve a lot of amusing and extraordinary events with my monkeys. Then I also thought about mentioning all the boys that come through, stay, come back into my life because there are quite a few of them and for some funny twist in my universe, I've remained quite great friends with many of them (after going through hell and back and around).
I also go through a lot of changes every year. EVERY YEAR. I'm not kidding. One day a couple of years ago, I decide to list every significant event that I've encountered and for every year since I was 16, I've had at least one. Either I've gotten married, had a baby, got a divorce, moved, changed jobs, went back to school, had another baby, married again, moved, dated some new guy, moved, dropped out of school and went back again, changed jobs again, moved again. I've been in the Bay Area since 1994 and I've moved 12 times since then, one time a move all the way to the East Coast (and then back again, of course).
But I've had no regrets. And I'm not saying that for the sake of saying it, to seem content with where I'm at right now. I'm still not content really, that's why I go through all those changes. I'm not wishy-washy either. I'm just not easily settled and not afraid to change and move on.
Some, okay most, well maybe all, folks say that I need to settle down soon, and they don't mean married. I say I am who I am and I'm not doing anything my heart doesn't feel right it should do. If all my changes are deemed mistakes, I call them journeys. And I have a feeling I'm going to go through a few more, especially this year.
And that's why I'm starting a new blog...
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Posted by: Walt Grayson | 03/22/2010 at 11:11 AM